13th June 2009

13^th June 2009, a Saturday that no need attend company meeting, so all my house mates and also my colleague planned something to fill the spare time on this weekend. I planned nothing for myself on this weekend, and also not following their plan to find friends in Taman U. Initially, I planned to help up my pastor in Taman U, but last night she told me that there is an event going on for her church on this weekend, so she suggested that we postponed our plan to next week. As the result, I have no plan for this weekend!

Don’t know what can I do for this weekend. I want to spend some time to learn about Javascript and find some solution for the system I developing, I want to go church on night, I want to have a new hair cut, I want to clean up my hostel and all my clothes.. but, I don’t want to be alone at home..

Afraid that the lonely feel will kill me in these 2 days.. Online? Facebook? MSN? Hey, this is Saturday lehh.. Everyone planned something. Go dating, back hometown, visit friends... Feeling stupid just spending my Saturday for online.. What to do?

Here is what I did for today:-

I washed my clothes on morning while others is still sleeping. Before leaving hostel, Chee Ho send me a link through MSN. The link led me to a Youtube video that mourning Zhi Theng, my friend who rested in peace on Thursday night. It has been I very long time I didn’t hear any news about Zhi Theng after Form 5. Suddenly, I received a message from Chee Leng that mentioned the bad news. Feeling unbelievable.. But, it’s fact. Life is so fragile..

Without delay, we go restaurant nearby to have Dim Sum as our breakfast plus lunch. This afternoon I managed to fix my motor and have a new hair cut in You & Me. Then, I leaved Taman U on 5.00p.m.

6.30p.m., I reached Johorjaya Rosmerah. The air-conditioner is a little bit cold due to the rainy weather. Walked alone to the way back to hostel, suddenly I think of having dinner first before back to my hostel. So, I changed my way to Mei Hwa Café to have my economy rice.

Returned to hostel to take a shower after having dinner. I decided just buy a fit-to-live house in future when looking into my hostel. The feeling of being alone at home is really fearful.. The hostel is so silent.. Silent until I can listen to my heart beat..

8.00p.m., Zi Feng fetched me to church at Anggerik, Johorjaya. Today, we discuss about Sadness as a modern community sickness. I found that I have all the symptoms they mentioned in the discussion. Cool, have no feeling to love, self conscious, sleepless insomnia, bad appetite, no confident, down, pessimistic, hopeless.. Seem like I really need to arrange a counseling session for myself soon..

After the fellowship, Zhi Xiong invited me to a nearby mamak stall for yam cha. I just knew this guy through the fellowship just now. During the yam cha session, we shared our experience. We are both converted Christian in non-Christian family background. I have similar feeling when I listen to his sharing.. Feel good to know him here..

11.37p.m., reached my hostel and start blogging.. That’s all for today.. nitez..

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