Conflict

Recently, I’m conflicting among myself. Not sure whether I should change someone mind, for his good and become his enemy at last. Or let him go for the mistake, and learn from there. The situations here, seems like the second choice is a smarter way. But, it’s really hard for me to bear that mistake, because the mistake will affect me in another way. Which one should I choose between friendship and my principle?

What will people do when they found a problem? Run away from it? Face it? Solve it? From successful people, of course we know we should face and solve the problem rather running away from it. But, how many of us are brave enough to face the reality? Problem will still exists, if do not solve it now. Maybe it will become greater when we facing it tomorrow.

The day my father get stroke, I went to hospital in school uniform. A doctor come and talk to me, he introduced himself as the ex-student of my school. I told him that my father get stroke and ask him whether got anyway to cure my dad. He told me to be calm, my father need my support. He tell me a truth, he said nothing can cure stroke, only prevention can be made. People never feel harm when they know that they have high blood pressure. But, why people taking medicine to lower down their blood pressure? Because they already know the result of high blood pressure is to get stroke. For those who don’t want to face reality will end up here getting stroke. They see the situation now have no harm to him, so he don’t take the medicine advised by doctor, they never realize that the mindset killing them softly until they found out they get stroke in bed.

Since then, I know I have to face the reality is an important attitude. The difference in thought will give us to different result. Actually, we already decided the result when we have the thought in our mindset.

Sometimes, I feel I’m the trouble maker for this world. Other people never happy when I told them that I see that is a potential problem there. The world will become peace, if people like me doesn’t exists? May be yes, may be no.

Who cares about what they will be facing in future? Most of the people just see what they see is true in front of them. Why need to do so much to forsee your future? You will know it when you see the result.

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There is an elephant outside the refrigerator

This is not my story.. Just a touching story to share..

There is a little girl who has a lovely father. But, she never appreciated it. She feels shame when her friends making jokes on her 200 pounds father. She is always sensitive with the word Pig!

Every day, her father sent her to school. This girl never know that is the most happy thing for a child. One day, she cannot stand for the shame anymore.. She told her father no need to send her to school anymore and tell her father the shame she felt every day.

His father ask him what is the steps to put an elephant into the refrigerator. The answer is to open the refrigerator door, put the elephant into it and close the door. He told the girl with smiles, although the elephant is big size, but the refrigerator still willing to fit it into it… The girl smiled and says, “Then you are the elephant in refrigerator…”

Their family is really poor, they just rent a small unit of apartment to stay. One day, the girl ask her father.. Why we dun have home? Her father ask her a question, how to place a giraffe into refrigerator? She say, open the door, chop the giraffe head, put the giraffe into refrigerator and close the door. Her father says, “Don’t make things difficult, you just need to open the door, bring the elephant out, place the giraffe in the refrigerator, then close the door.” He continued, “Girl, you see giraffe also have it house now, the refrigerator is it home… What you need is a home, not a house…”

One day, her mother told her that, “Girl, one day the jungle is on fire. Which animal still alive? Is giraffe! Because you put it into refrigerator…” That girl don’t get what her mother mean and replied, “So?” Her mother cried and said, “The elephant also died in the fire! Your father is dead. He will never come back to us again.” That girl cried out, “Why this happen to me? Why I choose to let elephant stay outside the refrigerator? Why I cannot accept my father big size? ”

The death of father change that girl’s life, happiness and luck no longer belong to her… For others, happy may because you have the one you love as your lover, or you have one love you as your lover, or you have your success in career… For her, happy is just two things, one is to have someone love you and someone you love at the same time, another one is to have a warm home…

What if the giraffe never exist, will the story end happily? No, the elephant will also die because of freezing in the refrigerator…

Sometimes, people may lost their mind, lost in their life and forgot the way to go home… A sub story worth for us to think of it… Recently, she read a lost and found notice in newspaper. There is a bee looking for 5 ants. Maybe the ants are lost or forget their home. So, she called up that bee and told him that she willing to help him to find out the 5 ants. But, the bee told her no need to find the ants for him anymore, because he already gave up. The bee told her that happy is no voice itself. So, you never realize it existence whenever it surround you, and you never appreciated it until the happiness lost in air and never come back to you again…

19th May 2009

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Poem

During my secondary time, a few of my friends can make good poem. We use poem to criticize people and more important is to express our feeling. Recently, I make a poem by merging two sentences from a song. Then, I placed the poem in my msn personal message.

Then, a few guys message me and ask me about that. I told them that I make this poem for fun, but they say the poem also mean my feeling in another way. I admit it.

人走了就让心死了，你走了就让门关着了.. Direct translation of this poem: If someone leaved, let the heart die. If you leaved, let the door close. What a pessimistic poem. As a result, I get scolded for being thinking pessimistic. I agree that I’m pessimistic in most of the time. Sorry friends, I need time to have my new life. Forget the past… and forgive myself for my guiltiness.

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痛

自从欣雨离开以后，展鹏的心里的那一块也被她带走了，剩下的只是一个空虚的躯体。不断地尝试去寻找回自己的灵魂，也曾经尝试让忙碌的生活填满空虚的心灵，希望疲惫的躯体能够忘了自己失去的那一块。结果换来的是更加的空虚与寂寞，还有更多的痛楚……忙碌的生活，失去了目标与焦点，也忘记了自己是谁。告诉别人自己是个冰冷的机器人，只会做工，只会读书，自己失去情感也不顾及身边每一个人的感受。

心里的痛比身体的痛难熬。失去了她就好像失去了全世界；被她遗弃就好像被全世界遗弃了。想让身体痛来让自己忘记心里的痛。希望自己遇上几个恶匪，跟他们来场恶斗，伏诛他们，也让他们在自己身上捅几刀。死去就算是一种解脱，也不白死，活着也至少有一些贡献。

依稀记得跟她拥抱时，总是觉得我们本来就是一体的两个人的感觉。无法忘了自己的那一块被硬生生扯开的痛楚。不明白为什么原是一体的两个人会分开结果。曾经以为那就是所谓的天长地了……后悔自己当初为她放弃了全部朋友，受伤后没有人来安慰，这只能怪自己太单纯了。不明白为什么童话依然是故事，但是终于知道现实总是残酷的了。

痛真的让人长大吗？思念着她时，心总是楚楚的痛着，仿佛要逼自己要忘记她。但是，真的能忘了这甜蜜的回忆吗？应该让这甜蜜的回忆留在心中吗？无法忘记第一次对白的码头与黄昏，无法忘记跨越友谊的高原，无法忘记她微笑点头的堤防，无法忘记一起去过的每一个地方，更无法忘记2009年的约定……都忘不了。童话里都是骗人的……First and the last?都是骗人的谎言！

恨，恨她离开时也带走了自己的心，恨这世界怎么没有其他能够填满自己的心灵的人？怪自己太爱她，怪自己不珍惜她，怪自己当初狠狠地给了她那挽不回的巴掌。但是更多的还是遗憾……遗憾自己失去美好的，遗憾连朋友都不如，遗憾当初自己放下爱情选择了面包，遗憾这世界又多了一个最熟悉彼此的陌生人。

也许，上天早就已经注定他们不能在一起了。水里的鱼（欣雨）怎么能跟天空中的鸟（展鹏）在一起呢？有人说：“何必在乎天长与地久，至少曾经拥有过就好……”如果真的能永远在一起，还有谁会在乎曾经拥有？既然已经注定不能在一起，再难再痛也应该有个了结了吧！想将她还回来的戒指带到她微笑点头的堤防投进海里，想将过去美好的回忆写成小说、拍成电影。

事隔多年，痛也不再痛了。等待着她的银表也停了下来……听说她的未来也有了安排，想要祝福她。展鹏真的将她放下了……很快，展鹏就像自己的名字像一只展开翅膀的大鸟也去寻找自己的未来与梦想了。虽然，很想要再次恋爱来证明自己已经痊愈了……但还是很怕，怕自己无法找到一个比她更好的，怕自己再次受伤害， 怕自己无法对另一个人像对她一样好……希望找一个能够填满自己心灵的另一半，希望有人能够像她这样了解自己，希望有人能够比她更能体谅自己，让自己也能够同时有时间给朋友、家人和事业。

人，就只有这短暂的一辈子。但是往往一起走到最后的，很多时候都不是一起开跑的人。在完全放下之前，不想对不起别人，所以不想任何恋爱。前程茫茫，不知道自己会怎样，所以也不敢恋爱，怕辜负了别人。当然，也不能让自己随便跟一个单纯的小妹妹说会天长地久……如果发生的一切好像偶像剧一样完美，谁还会有这样多担忧了？学习向现实低头，将一切交给未来吧！

终于领悟喜欢、爱和能不能永远在一起是三件不同的事。喜欢是可以来自单方面的，也不需要任何回报，爱则是来自双方面的，但是能不能永远在一起才是现实。

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Flash in mind

Recently, this concept came into my mind. Be appreciated whenever you have a choice in hand, and don’t blame anyone or anything when you don’t have choice!

When we have the right to choose, we can choose the best option available. Doesn’t matter the result is good or bad… We already do with our utmost ability. This is the best we can do… The rest is fate.

Another thing, I’m more respect those who have better personality if compare with those who with better ability. Is not the matter of how many great things that you did to this world, but how good are you in being a human being.

You must be a good mankind before you consider good in anything… I strongly believe in this! What happened recently remind my believing.

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Something funny on Youtube..

This is something funny i found on youtube during my boring Chinese New Year...

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